Fear is a natural emotion, we all experience it at one point or another, it’s perfectly normal to be afraid. However while there are logical rational fears there are also those which fall on the opposite end of the spectrum. While fear can be healthy all too often it becomes detrimental, a crutch, a block in living ones life. Unfortunately often those irrational illogical preposterous fears are what seem to capture and hold many. Keeping them from growing, from learning, from manifesting their best selves. I myself have a ton of fears, some logical, some not. Some rational, some not. Some healthy, some not. For the most part I do not let them stop me from living my life, however sometimes things happen whether consciously or unconsciously which allows my fears to get the best of me and hold me down, keep me back.
Maybe one day I will learn to deal with my fears but until then I figured I would post some of my stranger ones in hopes of either making someone giggle, feel reassured that they aren’t the only one, or maybe in the weak hope that someone will feel the same and reassure me I’m not insane…
- I am deathly afraid of worms. While I know they can’t hurt me this one is based in trauma so in my mind they can and will hurt me, and hurt me badly. Evil nasty dirty worms. What makes it bad is that I have a daughter who thinks worms are cute and cuddly, to the extent she will buy bait worms (night crawlers) play with them, name them, and keep them as pets. I think I could have handled it better had my son had a fascination with them, but my daughter? My little princess? Now if that isn’t a slap in the face to my ego I don’t know what is.
- I am deathly afraid of Space Travel. Totally irrational, illogical, and outlandish. The chances of me traveling in outer space are less than nil, but still it terrifies me. I blame it on that stupid Schwarzenegger movie Total Recall. Actually just that one scene where him and Melina (Rachel Ticotin) are sucked outside of the building into the low atmosphere of Mars. That just totally freaked me out.
- My extreme social awkwardness leads to my fear of going into restaurants I have never been to before. Unless I am with a decent sized group of people I will not go into a new place. I can’t even begin to explain this one so I won’t even try.
- I’m not sure if this counts as a fear, well it does in a way I guess. I cannot use the bathroom if someone can hear me. I have termed it pee anxiety. Other than my kids and close family, if someone is around I cannot go, no matter how bad I have to. When I was a kid there were times all of us had to leave wherever we were and go home so I could use the bathroom. It is to the point that while in school I scout the location of the nearest most underused bathrooms everywhere on campus each semester. Scary, I know
- Being physically unable to run when necessary terrifies me. I have nightmares of trying to run and my legs simply not working, or only working in slow motion. I would like to think these dreams are manifestations of my subconscious due to health issues, but seeing as how they have been around longer than I have had a diagnosis I just don’t know
- Meeting new people is up there on the list with having a root canal, hell I would rather have the root canal than have to place myself in a social situation with strangers. I am always terrified that people are talking about me, laughing at me, etc… Whether they are or not I’ll never know so I just stay to myself and avoid situations such as that.
There you have it, a small look into my deranged and scary psyche. Please tell me I am not the only one to be afraid? Pretty please?
