Today was a good day, I cannot let myself forget that no matter what happens. I cannot let the actions of an idiot affect me or the fact I spent an amazing day with my kids. Easier said than done though, far easier.
Right now I have had more than enough of idiots, imbeciles,asshats, etc… etc… People need to stay the hell out of my business unless invited, simple as that. I am tired of liars, fakes, and jackasses. Unfortunately I surrounded myself with just such people in the past which allows for them to pop up in my life when they are least expected and never wanted. Sometimes I just want to run far far away, go somewhere no one can find me. Go somewhere no one knows me, no one holds a claim to me. Somewhere no one can hurt me, use me, discard me. I am not disposable contrary to what many seem to think. I have one of the biggest hearts of anyone I know, and it is easily bruised. Just because you don’t care doesn’t mean I don’t. I believe lies all too often. Pretty words meant to blind me from the truth. DAMMIT if you want something just tell me. Don’t tell me you care, when all you want is a piece. Don’t tell me that you’ll be here for me when all you want is someone to dump on until you feel better. Don’t tell me what you think I want to hear because I don’t. Don’t lie to me, don’t use me, don’t hurt me. If you can’t do that leave, leave now.
